Perfect Life

Why is my life so perfect? No problems, at all.

I have nothing to worry about, nothing hurts me. Nothing.

    Do you know why? Because you are so self centered with your own problems and trials that you forget people around you are going through different challenges, facing different disappointments, and having to fight different beasts to get moving forwards with their lives. You have no clue how life affects them because you don’t ask, I guess you just don’t want to know…

Good or bad, people are different, and they react to trials differently as well; however, my problem will be always big for me: so big that I’d wish I wouldn’t have to be going through it — we don’t have a choice, except face them.

Don’t judge others, their problems are really big for them.

    Sometimes it hurts, so bad... but I don’t want you worrying about it. Sometimes I doubt myself. I am weak, that I can be broken with words. Sometimes I cried, alone, in my room. But I would never tell you that. And you would never know.

It wouldn’t matter, my life is still perfect, and your problems are too big for you to notice how life is hard and not fair to either one of us.

    My secret to have a perfect life: I try looking for beauty in the world, I keep smiling — and that I can show you. Sometimes I like pretending my life is perfect. At least when I am pretending, it is.

Realidade

"Eu que tenho que dividir nosso segredo sozinha, eu que tenho que lidar com a tempestade dentro de mim. Do que eu quero, do que queria, do que eu tinha, do que eu perdi, do que eu sonhei, e do meu pesadelo... e aceitar a minha realidade me abrindo pra todas oportunidades que se abrem na minha frente. A vida tem sido mais doce comigo, e eu aprecio o que me é apresentado. Que continue sendo doce, e que eu aprenda como lidar com tudo isso."

I decide.

Sometimes we give up. We give up on the world, we give up on us, we give up on having hope. No matter how life got better years ago, it was just for a moment in time. Trials come, testing our capacity to stay strong in what we have as ideals. 

It is such a fine line describing my disappointing towards people who at times seem losers and weak for giving up, while they are just fed up with the current situation. 

Life will always change, will always challenge your values and your capability to keep going. 

The world is not fair. Life is not fair at all. In a daily basis our dreams can be crushed, our plans ruined and our hope vanished. It sucks sometimes! But we need to forget about the negativity around us. The world is way more beautiful than dark, life is now, and at this moment. Live your life now. Be happy now. Don’t wait for the perfect moment because it might just never knock on your door. 

Forget about the bad and focus on the amazing things God put in your life to teach you through experience, overcoming weaknesses and growing as a human being. Be grateful. Be happy. Be sweet. Change yourself, and you can change your world for a better one. Your decision... 

Infinities

I never thought I would be able to understand a slightly part of any infinity. It is hard to make it work in your mind. It challenges your intellect with future plans. I feel like when we achieve something is because we had a dream.  Then it's done! It's over. Therefore, things shouldn't be always infinite, specially when you achieved the desired whatever you aiming for. 

Infinities have different values. It could be a big infinity or a really small infinity, and both will give you different answers and different outcomes. I guess infinity is whatever you need to not stop. In relation to anything: math, school, life... 

The only thing that we really need to understand about infinity is that no matter how big or small it is, it will never ever end. Which means, it is never too late to change what is not that "good" now in order to create a "better" future. 

Eu decido meu futuro.

Não sei por que cargas d'água hoje eu decido que é um dia bom de escrever no blog. Hoje aconteceu uma coisa interessante, e acredito que vai mudar um pouco minha perspectiva. Logo em que me mudei para Idaho, e me vi cheia, recheada e com excesso de temas, projetos, e provas eu comecei a reclamar da quantidade de tempo que eu tinha que focar na faculdade. Vira e mexe, acho que tenho o direito de reclamar da escassez do meu tempo. Até que hoje me falaram:
" Para de reclamar, tu é completamente responsável pelo tipo de vida que tu leva! Ninguém mandou querer ser médica."

Concordo e descordo. Acredito que não temos como fazer nosso destino 100% do tempo porque as vezes, os nossos planos, os das outras pessoas, ou os planos de Deus não são iguais. Mas pelo menos na maioria das vezes, nós podemos escolher o tipo de futuro e vida que queremos ter. A meta agora é ter ATITUDE  e não perder a FORÇA. Tomara que valha a pena..

Deu pra ti

Hoje me bateu aquela saudade. Saudade de amigos que eram só meus. Hoje não são mais tanto. Saudades das aventuras que simplesmente inventávamos, das viagens intergalácticas, ou psíquicas através da maionese de nossos cérebros. Saudade de quando fazíamos parte da prioridade no presente, enquanto hoje somos mais uma lembrança do que qualquer outra coisa. Saudade dos nossos segredos. Dos nossos olhares com mensagens subliminares.  Saudade de te ter ao meu lado bagunçando ou simplesmente travando planos imensuráveis, inventando mundos idealísticos. 

Não é uma, mas várias. Afastadas de mim pelo destino, lugar, ou simplesmente escolha própria. Os que junto de mim não tiveram escolha, a culpa é do destino que injustamente nos colocou pra brilhar em caminhos diferentes. Agora, se por escolha própria te afastas-te, prometo que mesmo relutantemente  respeitarei o escudo ao teu redor com novas prioridades. Sempre tentei, hoje eu cansei... Que fique bem claro que a escolha disso não foi minha. 

Can't wait for the sun

Things have changed... Life is just different.

I had to learn to live without. Without many things. I'm a bit different, but still the same. How could that be? How I am sensitive and strong at same time? How could I keep going, when my path was erased before me? How could my life turned 180 degrees, again (...) ??

 Instead of asking whys, I focused on the hows. We cannot chose everything that is given to us, but we sure can deal with it. Every trial we have to go through, we can handle. Even though when we can't, we can. We can because if we couldn't, it wouldn't be given to us. It sounds confusing, but that's truly the way it is.

The bad weather has stopped and moved on (at least that's what everyone hopes and wishes for); the only and certain true is that we will all have storms in our lives, they are fundamental to our progress. Learning to deal with them is not an option, but an obligation. Progress takes a lot of time, hope and endurance. Maybe double of this. Maybe triple of this. Maybe even more than we think ...

But eventually no matter how ugly the storm is, the rainbow will come, the lightnings will cease, the winds will calm and the sun will come...
Can't wait for the sun light to strike again, can't wait to have the reflexion of the sun in my eyes - sparkling, hoping, dreaming, waiting, just happy being ...
I think I am ready, and that's scary.